Nobody dreams about coming in last and I don’t think anybody hopes or wishes to lose. From a very young age it’s instilled in us that there are winners and losers. We place such a strong value on winning and we are taught winning is good and losing is bad. This is probably why we never see anyone jump up and down overjoyed when they come in last place. But if you never know what it’s like to be last, you will never know what it’s like to defeat your toughest competitor, yourself.
Think about all those “one hit wonder” celebrities. They hit it out of the park on the first shot and then they’re never heard of or seen again. If you win on your very first try then there’s nowhere else to go. You’re done! That’s it!
I reached the goals I set out to reach and I am so proud of the accomplishments that I made. My muscle growth and symmetry vastly improved since my first show and my confidence walking and posing improved so much you wouldn’t even know I was the same person. I am most proud of how strong I’ve become mentally. Compared to my first show, I felt like a completely different person. A WINNER. Walking on stage was my celebration for all the hard work I put in. I felt like a million bucks and that’s winning to me. Knowing that you’ve done everything you possibly can to be the best you can be.
I beat the one person I wanted to beat most of all-myself. Winning wasn’t about bringing home a trophy because I earned the best trophy there is, a trophy I will carry around with me forever, everyday, CONFIDENCE and the WILL to keep going. If I was an instant success I’d already be the best and I wouldn’t develop the drive and determination I have to carry on.
It makes me sad to think there are some people who step on stage with the intention to only place first because they will never know the feeling of self-defeat. To me there is no better feeling than to know that you beat yourself.